I'm Nervous!

Life for me has been interesting this past year. I experienced a painful breakup, I had some emotional meltdowns with some people who were close to me, I grew to dislike my job, and I became increasingly disgruntled with my family's judmental ways, but I also experienced some great moments during this same year. I grew and matured tremendously as an individual, I worked real hard to pay off some bills, I spent a lot of time soul-searching, I played football and dodgeball just because I wanted to, I met a new guy, and I searched for new job opportunities...one of which is probably going to result in a new job. So, why, with all of these good things happening, am I nervous? Well...along with great changes and opportunities come greater responsibilities and that precisely is what makes me nervous.

I know I'm fully capable of performing well in this new job opportunity, I know I am able to maintain a long-term relationship, I'm certain I can transition easily into a new city, and I'm clear that I really can reach my financial and fitness goals, but the challenge and responsiblity associated with each of these things, among others, make me NERVOUS!

So, how shall I deal with this nervousness...I'm not exactly sure about all the ways, but I'm going to work really hard to incorporate more discipline and order into my life. I guess that's my New Year's Resolution. There are clear areas where I want to focus my energy...

1. I want to go to the gym before work at least 3 days every week.
2. I want to be in the office no later than 8am everyday.
3. I want to plan my meals weekly, going out to dinner no more than 2x/month.
4. I want to to save a set amount of money monthly.
5. I want to spend at least 2 nights/week focusing on a hobby or interest independent of the computer or TV.
6. I want to make good use of my weekend time...no wasting the day on the computer or laying around.
7. I want to follow a weekly to-do list...in fact, I want to live a more list-driven life.

So, here's to a new year and a new opportunity to live a "nervous-free" better life!