Those "Aha" Moments...

The journey of life presents us with many great opportunities. We encounter people who will change our perspective on life, we visit places that teach us in some strange way to appreciate what "little" we have, and we experience some things that make us think twice about what we say and how we act...basically, life's journey is one big learning experience.

For the past few months, my life has been driven by impulsive thoughts and feelings. I've made some quick decisions based on feelings in the moment that just felt right, but over the past week, I've had some "aha" moments and I've realized that some of my decisions weren't so great after all. Unfortunately, this reality has hit me pretty hard...

I find myself in a place where I don't know how to right my wrongs. I feel like I've messed up so bad that there's no real point in trying to fix things. The sad thing about it all is that my decisions, my statements, and my actions were driven by my efforts to make everything perfect. I've tried very hard over the course of my life to not repeat the "not-so-good" behaviors that I've seen or experienced in my past and now that which I thought was a good thing is the very thing that is causing me so much stress.

I know this all sounds confusing...there's way too much on my mind tonight. I guess all I'm really trying to say is that every once in a while, we realize that we've made some "not-so-great" choices in life. When those "aha" moments come, embrace them, feel them, but most importantly, learn from them. If the moments bring some pain, embrace it. If the moments bring some tears, feel them. No matter what those "aha" moments bring, learn a lesson from them. That's what I'm trying to do....