Not Sure When, But I'm Certain It Happened...

As I've shared before, it's quite difficult for me to open up and let people into my space. It's been even more challenging for me to love and be loved, but I realized tonight (or perhaps earlier in the day or last week) that somewhere along the way I've fallen in love with S. Crazy, right? Here I am this strong-willed female who made it my business to avoid emotional attachment at all costs, yet I find myself feeling this thing called "love".

How do I know it's love...well, I don't necessarily know since I've never been in this place before, but I do know that I've never cared about someone so much before. I truly believe that love should be understanding, love should be unselfish, love should be encouragement, and love should show compassion. With S., I feel all of these things. I know this is love because he kissed me on the forehead and melted my heart away...I know this is love because I stayed up all night helping him write a paper that I really didn't care about at all and it was okay...I know this is love because I cried on his shoulder and did not feel an ounce of shame...I know this is love because just being in his presence makes my day (even if we don't speak a word).

It's so amazing to be in this place and even though I had vowed to protect myself from falling in love, I'm glad it happened. It is indeed true, taking the leap into love is worth the risk...I feared falling and hurting myself, but I'm blessed to have a man in my life who didn't let me fall, instead he has chosen to carry me in his arms and take this journey with me and I LOVE him for that.

Sorry to be so mushy...I just can't help myself these days.